breaking the pattern

I don't claim to be perfect. Because I'm not.

I don't claim to know all the answers. Because I don't.

I don't claim to understand life. Because I can't.

I don't claim to never fail. Because I won't.

But...

I try to be human. Because I am.

I try to care. Because I do.

I try to grow. Because I can.

I try to persevere. Because I will.

I'm not one of those people who has life all figured out, who never lets their emotions get the better of them. I"m not always confident, beautiful, or funny, and I can be messy. I can be boring. I can be fake. I can text people too often. I cry too much for my own liking and I don't have the same humor as everyone else. But even though I may not be perfect, I am determined. I am determined to break the pattern of this life I've lived. I'm sick of being predictable. I'm sick of playing it safe. I'm sick of keeping the status quo just because it is comfortable. I'm sick of living in a box. Give me new experiences. Give me new challenges. Cause me to stretch. Cause me to grow. Cause me to think, to consider, to ponder. Cause me to go outside of myself. Call me into question. Call me into your arms. Let me hurt. Let me love. Let me live. I just want to live.

It's starting.